## Chellie's Poetry

#### "I wish I could call it teenage depressive angst-written anger poetry, but it just isn't. I was basically an emotional fluffball as a teenager, and it pretty much comes through here. Wish it were better, but here it is, typos and all faithfully recreated for your reading "pleasure."

> -Chellie DePorter

    001
    By   : CHELLIE DEPORTER
    Subj : Ode to me

    In the darkness of the universe
    By the light of all the stars
    I soar beyond normal men's dreams
    Of Jupiter and Mars
    I wander on through space and time
    Where night turns into day
    My only company the stars
    That guide me on my way.
    Forever does this, my world, stretch
    And so I wander on
    Waiting for the final hour
    A lonely vagabond.

    002
    By   : CHELLIE DEPORTER
    Subj : Conventions

    Creatures, costumes, movies
    Parties
    Money I have to spend
    That I don't really have
    Computers
    Games
    Suite
    Wander the halls
    Crash the rooms
    Play
    Eat, drink, be merry
    Convention

    003
    By   : CHELLIE DEPORTER
    Subj : Man in Black

    The Knight in Black
    He will attack
    Behind you there
    Don't stop or stare
    His blade so strong
    Is six feet long
    And with it
    He kills bunnies, bunnies
    And with it he kills bunnies.

    The man in black
    He will attack
    During the night
    They hop in fright
    His armor cold
    He's big, he's bold
    The big knight
    Steps on bunnies, bunnies
    The big knight steps on bunnies.

    The man in black
    He was attacked
    A wizard wise
    In a disguise
    Small, fuzzy, white
    Killed one lone knight
    The wizard fried the knight, the knight
    The wizard fried the knight.

       --Written during an English final.

    004
    By   : CHELLIE DEPORTER
    Subj : Ode on Tomorrow

    Tomorrow, how many times have I wandered
    So very far in search of your secrets
    But you excape me once and again
    Like crisp autumn leaves skittering down the walk
    In the brisk morning breeze.

    Many times have I reached for you
    When I thought you were nearer than you are
    Only to have my visions of you swept away
    As if it were a misty fog
    Ungraspable.

    Oh, Tomorrow, you are always changing
    The many waves upon the sea of time
    And as I drift on, you change eternally
    Never what I expected you to be
    Or how I expected you to look.

    As Tomorr,w you are unreachable
    Hiding around the corner, always out of sight
    Unthinkable, unimaginable, tenderly wrapped
    IN the fine fabric of time
    I will wait here for you.

    006
    By   : CHELLIE DEPORTER
    Subj : Untitled

    Though it is true
    I know you not well
    Yet together we think
    Much alike are we
    It is of you I learn
    And your actions I ponder
    For, upon seeing you
    Things change inside of me
    Though I am yet a child
    Worried do I become
    Concerned with myself
    For I only want to be
    Pleasing for you
    And as I am yet young
    Younger than my years
    It is true
    I am a foolish, lovesick maid
    Stumbling over thoughts
    Stuttering in speech
    As a blush paints my cheek
    My head spins 'round
    Reality no longer exists
    Only thoughts of you, dear
    My head is filled
    Only with thoughts of you.

    010
    By   : Chellie Deporter
    Subj : To J.

    You give me things
    I can't accept
    But I do
    They signify a love
    That does not shine as brightly
    AS it once did
    I told you
    Never would you lose me
    But I cannot stay
    I cannot remain
    With you
    We, together
    Must come apart
    Pain is not what I seek
    Nor is hatred
    Do not hurt for me
    Do not hurt for you
    I will hurt for us
    And what I cannot uphold
    It is my fault
    I cannot love you
    AS I said I did
    And I did
    So dear to me, you are
    DO not try to reason
    The heart cannot reason
    Only love and feel
    As mine did
    But can no longer
    And will no more.

    012
    By   : Chellie Deporter
    Subj : Unrequitted Love

    Unrequitted love causes great pain and sorrow
    The lovers, they wander and wait 'till the morrow
    For the time when they would look on their dear lover's face
    And hope and aspire to win their true love's grace
    Yet the lover, when not returned, in the heart doth burn a hole
    And the lack of true love's favor keeps a man from being whole
    So the long, sad days carry on and drag him by
    Causing this poor lover to stop and ponder why
    He is unable to perform the task to stop the strife
    He cannot take the woman he loves as his dear wife
    This lover wanders on sadly from day to day
    Praying that the woman he loves will love him the same way
    But his vision lies unreached and he does not complete his quest
    Yet he tries to the very day his soul is laid to rest.

    014
    By   : Chellie Deporter
    Subj : Arise, Great Sol

    Arise, great Sol, and greet the brand new day
    And help me make it through the hours now
    It seems that you have found another way
    To travel 'round the Earth, for you don't show
    Your light and warmth upon the ground.  They say
    You will not be returning.  They just know
    The children now will have no light to play
    As they did before, and nothing new will grow.
    Why have you left us here inside the gloom
    That envelops us like eternal night
    Now I must hide inside my room
    And wait for a solution to the blight
    Won't you return and give us what we need
    To raise our children and grow the seed?

    030
    By   : CHELLIE DEPORTER
    Subj : Poem

    So very much in love
    But am I here alone?
    I wander blindly through
    Misty fog and vague statements
    Do I merely love
    xDOr are we in love?
    I tell him my feelings
    But he will not
    RElate his to me.
    I tell him I love him
    But he will not tell me
    He loves me.
    Circular reasoning
    Ambiguity
    I sit and wait in it all
    Hping,wondering
    Can {_I share my love
    Ir will it be pushed away
    Does he care
    Or merely pretend
    Can he show me
    Or must I merely believe
    Alone.