                               Souls In Chaos Ver 4.00
                                    Created by Xar
                                  Copyright 1995 Xar



Well I am back again to bring some hope in your sorry lives , yes Souls
in Chaos actually , made it to issue 4.00 , for those of you who were
looking for Souls in Chaos in the winhelp file format too bad only going
to start doing that in issue 5.00.

First a few things that will make your mind spin with joy , and if your
a woman make your nipples hard , err some guys have that problem also
but its not my duty to write about it. Souls in Chaos is going to get
larger , yup your going to get more of the same shit in your email  ,
more stupid things from my warped mind more death and destruction and
horny women.

In a few weeks time I hope to start a new spin of zine from Souls in
Chaos called Rage of Darkness , the reason for this is because Souls in
Chaos was supposed to be a morbid and demonic zine but it turned out to
be a funny one arrrggghhhh #$!!@!@!@!!!!  (pardon my French) , so I
decided to make a new zine with morbid and demonic thoughts from my
warped mind. The point I am trying to make is if you want to get a copy
send me email and I will send you the beta copy of it , it wont be out
for a few weeks so you can get your brain prepared for it.

By now you must me wondering what great issue that faces the world I
will be writing about in this issue, no its not going to be about
weather ants a can talk or not , its going to be about that hated
feeling  " Love " , god I have a bitter  taste in  my mouth when say
that  word.

The first stop in understand love is a trip to the movies , all you have
to do is to sit in some sick love story and barf all over the floor ,
everything is happy , happy , happy , give me a break I know the popcorn
is so greasy that I want to barf up but do you have to make the movie so
sick that I will  have to barf to feel better. 

A typical love story is like boy meets girl , the fall in love , after a
few days they get married and then they have kids , ever wondered my the
worlds population is so fucking high its because some dicks actually
follow what they see in the movies and think its so great to have kids.
Come to think of it I have compiled a list of reasons why not to have
kids , read on and weep.

Reasons not to have children ( otherwise known as little devils)

1) When they are young they shit all over the house 

2) The require money to grow and they die if you don't have money and
even getting rid of them is expensive

3) They  don't give you as much fun as a very good stereo system would
and they cost more to feed

4) Every 10 days they find that all the stuff you bought them is broken
and want more

5) Every 10 days you will wonder why is it so hard to kill that little
fucker

6) The moment they learn how to read they will insist that you write
them a will stating that you will give them all the money.

7) Sometimes they become smarter than you at age 10 then when you  are
at age 50

8) Help reduce the worlds population , have a child and have him well
done for the thanks giving dinner

9) As soon as they learn how to drink they will start consuming huge
quantities of beer which in turn will make the price of beer go up and
where does that leave you ?

10) They always seem to be able to barf better than you.

Now that you have read these wise reasons why not to have kids , I hope
you will take that chopper in your house and go and kill your sisters
kids , your kids and any other specimen of creation that is a young
member of the human species.

Actually I wonder why we fall in love , its the big " L " word , it
seems odd how many important words begin with the letter  " L " i.e.
Lick , Limp , Lust , Look  all these words are nice but Love is the
worst one around. Anyway I am fucking fed up of talking about love time
to move on to a more current problem that bugs me. Why are the dotted
lines on credit card slips so fucking small , 4 cm that's it you are
supposed to sign your name in 4 fucking cm and the ink is so faint that
you cant see the dots.

Then when you sign in the wrong place you have to sign again and again
until you get it right pretty soon the whole damm slip is covered with
signatures and then they cant accept it and you have to do it again ,
give me a break when I am stoned out of my skull I can hardly walk , and
you expect me to sign the slip the same way I do when I am sober ???

I am going to bitch about another thing women , arrghhh they drive me up
the wall one day its fine to say you want to fuck them the next it hurts
them when you want to fuck them , their moods change like the fucking
wind , will all the women in the world please tell their men on which
days you can say what , because all this guess work in trying to
understand a woman is driving me up the wall.

Why do women say one thing and always end up doing the opposite thing ,
like for example I take a girl out of Mexican food because she told me
she wants Mexican food , what does she do when she goes into the
restaurant she orders the only fucking Italian dish on the menu , after
she gets it she complains that its not nice , err correct me if I am
wrong but spaghetti and meatballs are not what the everyday Mexican in
Mexico eat  for lunch, why didn't she tell me she wanted to eat Italian
food , nope its got to be spaghetti and meatballs that is cooked in an
Mexican restaurant.

I better start to talk about computers now as you can see I have been
jumping from topic to topic in the issue of souls in chaos ,  why am I
doing this you may ask because I have nothing better to do than sit in
front of a computer and type this shit to all  you dicks that read souls
in chaos. Computers are better than women , read on to find out.

Reasons why a computer are better than women.

1) You can upgrade the speed of the computer without upgrading the
casing of the computer , try doing that with a woman.

2) You can program them to do what you want it to do , women have no
fucking operating system at all so how the fuck can you program them ??

3) If computers get a  virus attack you can safely clean it , if your
woman gets a virus attack you better go to the doctor.

4) Two computers can be linked and they can share the resources , how do
you link women 

5) If you don't like the way the computer looks then you can change the
case , with a woman it takes a lot of cash to do that.

6) By inserting a card you can increase the things your computer can do 

7) They never complain why you don't turn them on any more

8) If you push the right keys you get your work done , if you push in
the wrong places in women you may get a slap

9) They always take about the same time to boot up and they can come on
in a few sec's

10) All you have to do is hit the reset button and the computer will
forget all the things you did to it

11) Computers do have places to put your dick into , they may be small
holes but its a hole anyway 

12) You can just shut them off when you don't need them anymore

13) Computers don't need to be fed and given gifts 

See the computer can be better than a  woman , I think all people should
start dating their computer , so I they do the conversation will begin
to get interesting , e.g. oh puter  your ram is so long , yes my dear I
have 72 pin ones the best you can get. For those of you who are wonder
how a date with a computer will be read on and find out.

Computer :  God baby you boot me up every time I see you in that dress
Woman    : Your just saying that because you have a new operating system
Computer : I think my ram is hot enough now , so why don't you write
something in it Woman    : Shall I show you my spread sheets or do you
want to scan me over Computer : Babe spread your sheets , you know my
CPU gets go fucking hot when you do that Woman     : I know , Puter lets
compile so passionate code together Computer  : You know me when I
compile I compile with out any errors Woman      : Yeah I know that ,
the last time we did a compile I nearly had a UAE Computer    : God I
need to clean my disk drive today

See how nice it is the computer  and the woman have a nice convo make
some code and if they don't use protection they have a little program
they can both love after a short while , and if the program does not do
what's it is supposed to do they can delete it.

Now back to more serious things like the chants of  Xar , here is some
more shit that you may like read on and weep my friends , for all we
have in this world is pain .

The Chants of Xar

Copyright 1995 Kelvin Muthumani  ( Its him again , god does he ever give up)


God of Pain


Watching over the world
With eyes of fire
This god lives
Why give me pain
Why give dreams
Why give me love
God is this what I deserve
You god listen to me
I once believed in you
You were the god of joy
Now you are the god of pain
Pain , smooth pain
Pain like loosing your soul
Pain  to believe in the lies
 I have suffered  enough
I have seen the light
My god
I now spit on your face

Dark Legions

The fallen gather
In a place where time does not exist
The pit of darkness
We have lost  this battle
Fight , for you blood
Drink , the blood of the one you hate
Like the darkness
The will of the lord will be done
Until the end of time


Demons of my soul

Scream in rage 
Curse the false god
Who died on the cross
The nails in his body should have been deeper
Like the nails in my soul
You who died for our sins
Did not die for me
You lies are the religion of many
I was the one with the mark
The mark that is the end
From this day 
My soul is not yours
My god
My sweet god 
You have lost another
Another soul that once believed
Now darkness rages in my blood
Demons feed my hunger
Blood for blood
Sins for sins
Life for death
The dark one has given me the sight
To see your sins
I am the new god
I am of the circle of 13
I am your fate
I am your death
Demons , Angels , Humans
Listen to the cry of my soul
The book of life is torn
The false god 
Is no more on this earth
Ashes to ashes 
Dust to dust
I will destroy you
Welcome to my nightmare

The Devils Game

You played your cards
Played them well
But not with me did you play with
Not with the one you love
The devil in me has risen
Mind lost in the void
Demonic blessing will I give you
Pleasures of the gods I bring to you
Power and Glory are yours 
All this I will give you and more
For only one thing my lie
Your mind 
It will become mine
I will rule it
Until it destroys you
As the prophets wrote
Never play 
Never play
With one who has tasted the blood of the Devil

Blood of my mother

Never again will the winds blow
Never again will my mind think
I have seen the blood flow
I have tasted the sins
I have read what is to be read
Demons look upon me
My life lies in the void
The gods have left me
Now I obey you
For the blood of my mother is yours

Sad in Mind

Like the night we breed
Worms that make holes in your brain
Feed on you life 
For your life is no more
The smile of the past is gone
Tears of blood drip on the stone
Lick the fruit that is forbidden
He sits on the throne of stone
A smile that cannot be
In a place that I live in
See the Devil touch your blood
See your blood turn to ice
Become a part of the family

Beast

I stand before you
This world is mine
Fires of infamy burn in my eyes
The beast is in me
In ages long ago there lived the beast
Now in the year of the black sun 
I have returned
Venom of snakes flow in my blood
Blood as black as the devil
Power of the side that you try to hide from
I let the beast in me live
The flame rises
Until it reaches the heavens above
Burn , Burn , you have to see the pain
I live in , this world is mine
Mine to love
Mine to destroy
Mine to become god to



God of the Dead

Blood as warm as the one you drink
Hope that the gods envy
Sight beyond sight
Life that will not end
All these I give you
When you run I wont leave
When you hate I will love
When you die I will live
I will give them all to you
For it was I who made you



Pain

It becomes a part of me 
A part that cannot be
In this life of mine
Many wonders have I seen
I still recall the pain I felt
Like darkness it wraps you
Pulling me down
Deeper into the depts
The pain that will always be
Has become my only friend

Doors to my soul

In my soul there is a door
A door that leads to my mind
To one I gave the key
Setting my mind free
Like the mist at dawn 
The hopes fade away
She opined that door
And all that remained 
Was the pain of my sins


Master of Life

I fall on my knees
To you I bow down to
Until this day I was a man
Today I am death
No blood runs in my body
Forgive me master
For I did not live the life
My task is done
My hopes are gone
For you are the master 
And I am the slave

The Dark Lord

In glory I fought against you
For the ones who killed me
Now that the helping hand is gone
I am alone , alone in pain
Before you I place my sword
It has tasted the blood of angles
Like the pain that tore me
It will rip those who hurt you
Lord allow me to become you son
For I have seen the light 
And the shadows of my past
Still haunt me 
On this day I give you my life
Until the very end I will be the one
Dark Lord I bow down to you
You are my master
You are my life


Love

To some it is life
To some it is death
This love of mine 
This life of mine
Is but a dream
The darkness creeps in
And the love fades away
Who knows this may be the right way


We are the unknown 

We are the ones that you spit on 
We are the ones that you step on 
We are the ones that believe in hell
Demons , Devils , Gods 
Look upon us
With souls like the blackest stone
We will bleed you
We will curse you
We will become you
For we are the unknown


Am I the one

Am I the one you hate
Am I the one you punish
For all the lives I have lived
My soul is yours
The pain you give me is pure
As pure as the lies you tell me
Leave me be 
Let be become the one I want to  be
Lord why do you hate me so


Well that's all for now people , the next version of souls in chaos will
be in the winslop help file format and in ASCII  so look out for some
cool graphics , that is if I find any cool graphics , and if you want to
be put on the mailing list of Rage of Darkness when the first issue
comes out by the end of this month send email to xar@icon.net and put
ROD TO ME in the subject field and the copy of this program will be sent
automatically to you. Till we meet again when this sun of ours burns
blacker than my soul I wish you death , destruction and anger , in rage
we met in rage we will part.

									Xar [-]



